Tuesday, August 4, 2015

A story of a black janitor in a dream

I have crazy dreams every now and then, and the ones I remember most are ones I have after falling back to sleep. This one might have a message behind it about perspective, but it's just a dream and I didn't really have control over what happened. There were a few other things going on in the dream but this part is what I remember most because it was so damn odd. I felt it was necessary to racially analyse this event. Not because I'm racist, but because I understand the struggle (maybe more than you).

I was in a normal size class room but it looked old and had a high ceiling with wood panel walls and outdoor benches for seating/tables, one of them I was sitting at with another person. There was a TV on the wall playing a violent horror film—something about zombies. As a black janitor comes into the room to do his thing, he looks at the TV the moment two black men appear on screen. He asks openly, "why are they watching this here?" Still looking at the TV, he sees one of the black men single -handedly (yes, literally) shove a chainsaw into the other's neck.

The "black" janitor :)

The scene looked more cartoonish than disturbing to me in the dream because there wasn't any blood at that point, and the guys both just stood still, with the chainsawer's arm and victim's head being the exceptions. The janitor then has a negative reaction that I don't remember specifically but it was something along the lines of a mild-volume but still dramatic "oh god" in a disgusted tone instead of horrified.

Now, for some reason in the dream I knew the majority of the school was white. With this detail, I thought the janitor meant "why are they watching this here?" like it was some kind of anti-black propaganda or at least a black-majority character production and it just didn't make sense for a mostly-white school to be watching it. Or he was just disgusted by the violence being shown onscreen at a school for kids. *shrugs*

But maybe I missed something. Perhaps I missed him seeing some zombies or violence before asking the question—or he had recognized the movie—and he was disturbed by the gruesome action of a chainsaw being shoved into a someone's neck. I guess it depends on what he's sensitive to, but I don't think I'll be able to find out.

Maybe his race doesn't even matter in this situation, and I read into this dream way too far. Nah, it's probably that he's an oppressed black janitor being reminded of his brothers from a past life in the fields. Always gotta remember that on a daily basis to be a healthy-minded black American.

Sorry this wasn't some kind of porn if the title threw you off. heh